Saturday, February 16, 2013


 I have not written posts or songs lately and it is actually really sad! However, I have been in a season where my life is consumed with change, and stress, and frustration. Granted, God gives me days where I have this amazing joy that surpasses my understanding because I'm in the midst of stress. God is so good! I think I have diagnosed my situation though! I have been so worried about my priorities right now, that I have kind of kicked God to the curb. I h put on a mask that says, "Hey! I have most of my spiritual life all put together, and everything is going great!" The thing is though, is that once your life with Jesus starts to deteriorate, so does that mask. Your sin starts showing through, and God slowly exposes your the actual contents of your heart. By doing this, he starts gently (sometimes not as gently as we prefer) correcting you, and bringing you back to Him.

In this season, I have ignored the chance to write on my blog, to spend extra time with God, to write songs, and to become more of who God wants me to be. In the book, The Screwtape Letters by C.S Lewis, Screwtape, a demon says, "Indeed, the safest road to Hell is the gradual one-- the gentle slope, soft underfoot, without sudden turnings, without milestones, without sign posts." This quote and the entire book caused me to start thinking deeply about the spiritual aspect of life.

Anyway, God really has been taking me in a different direction. He has pulled me away from my low point, and he is bringing me to a place where he has been calling me. Its hard to explain, but I know that he is calling and pursuing my heart. He is chasing me so relentlessly, and I am blown away by his passion and love for me! A hunger so passionate for Him is rising in me, and I am so overjoyed that his adoration for me is making me adore and love him with all I am. It is a process though! It is such a process, and it isn't easy. However, he is giving me that passion for Him, and I am finding that when I have that in me, I can place more of myself into His hands.

I am not the only one God is calling though. He is calling us all. He is not whispering your name hoping that some day you will turn to Him and be saved. God is shouting your name with a hard core love that we don't understand. He is so passionate about us, so in love with us, that he will not relent until we turn to Him. I can honestly say that He is the best thing that ever happened to me. The best decision I have ever made was to choose Him.


Wednesday, August 8, 2012


What is your main focus??? Mine, unfortunately is not God, but he is becoming my main focus. He desires a relationship with you. He longs for your worship, and for you to bring Him glory. He is a jealous God. He doesn't like it when we chase other things or when we give him a little bit of attention.  He wants it all! Focusing on Him is really hard even when you aren't easily distracted. The enemy doesn't want your attention, your focus, to be on God, so he does everything in his power to distract you from what really matters. God wants to train you to be able to resist distractions, but you can only do that when you seek him out, and pursue him with all that you are. Its a desire thing, not a natural thing that happens when you accept Christ. He does give you desires for him, but it doesn't make your life any easier. So, I challenge you to make God your main focus. Once you make that a priority, you will find that he is even more amazing than you could ever imagine!


Wednesday, June 6, 2012


So, last night as I was talking to my sister, I realized how much girls/women are deceived. (Guys are too, but that is not my point.) We believe a lie that is planted in our hearts by the enemy that image is everything. Some of us form ideas in our minds of what beautiful is. When we don't line up with the definition of beauty we have created, we don't believe the truth about who we are. We base our appearance on what it could be, rather than on what it is. This is a LIE!!! Image is not everything. From this lie, eating disorders, fake identity, and self-hate are born. This is exactly what Satan wants though. He wants us to despise the beautiful creation that Jesus gave everything for. We are created in God's image. We were formed by him and our destinies and our days on this earth were carefully planned out and counted. This lie needs to be recognized, and broken. We were not only created to bring God glory, but we were created because God loved us to much not to create us. He didn't need us, but he wanted us. So, are you going to believe the lie that you are not good enough? Are you going to continue to tell God that he messed up when he created you the way you are? Are you going to let others around you buy into the lie, or are you going to tell them about it and speak life and truth into their lives? Its up to you now.    

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Losing Control

What do you think of when you hear the phrase "losing control"? I think of a person in a car hitting black ice. Honestly, it is a scary thing to lose control. Most people think that their worlds are going to collapse when they don't have control over their lives. Letting go of the control and power you have over your life is sometimes a bad thing, especially if you give that power to other people. (Being under some one's authority is totally different from being controlled by someone.) As Christians we are told to lose control. We are told to give up all control and power we posses to give it to God. It is really hard. Humans love to control things. We naturally freak out if we don't have power over our lives, dreams, and destinies. The thing is, is when we give God everything, we are in more capable hands than any other human being on the planet. We have no reason to freak out. God gave us free will, yes, that is true, but he wants the control. God isn't a control freak, but He loves us so He asks for the control. When we become Christians, we give our lives to God. However, we often don't give him control. This is a huge part of ourselves that does make us sin sometimes. It is important that we don't hold anything back from God. He will do amazing things in your life, you just need to let Him lead the way.


Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Finding Love

We seek love, we are desperate
We hope for true love, we are unsatisfied
We look to the world instead of You
We think we've found Love
Though we've only looked to ourselves
Love only can be found in You
Being loved isn't the problem
It is recognizing it and knowing it
It is searching for love in the right place
We tend to search for love in every place
but the place we know we will find it
We run away from it, thinking that we are
escaping wrath, punishment, and judgement
Once we have found love, it is overwhelming
We can't get away.
Though we sometimes push it away,
It is always calling
Love made a way, love leads the way
Some people claim to have found peace and love in others
But I have found True, Everlasting love
In Jesus Christ


More Funny Stories :D

I babysit on Tuesday nights and Thursday mornings for Bible Studies at my church. Tonight (Tuesday) one of the little boys I babysit had a few boogers in his nose. My sister was like, "Hey, don't eat that. You can put them in a tissue." He replied in an "Are you crazy!?!" tone of voice saying, "But I want to eat them!" It was pretty cute and such a boy thing to say :)


Sunday, April 22, 2012


Whether you are 12 or 103 procrastination (even in little things) is a normal. it is something that is sometimes expected by certain people who have low expectations. I am such a bad procrastinator that it's really hard to stop. I don't get things done so I end up having to finish them on Saturdays when I should be enjoying family, friends, and a free day. This habit is something that needs to stop! It's stealing from yourself and others because you are wasting time on luxuries (Facebook, Internet, texting, etc...) that should be enjoyed after the important work things are done. If we learn diligence at an early age, say in between the ages of 12 and 15, jobs will be easier to find, new opportunities will be able to be explored, and we will be closer to God. Procrastination limits our time with God, increases stress, and binds us from the freedom of time. God promotes peace, freedom, and a strong relationship with him, but we don't realize it. He blesses us with the time we have, and when we procrastinate, we misuse the gift God gave to us. Think about that for a moment.
Finding time for everything except God and school is mostly my problem. Somtimes I have a very productive day with school and God and everything else, but other days, I just get so distracted that I put every single thing that matters on the back burner. I am so sad about the months that I missed out on getting to be with and getting to know God. I don't want you to regret that either. God needs to bethe number one thing. We should never procrastinate on God. School and work need to be done diligently. Spending timewith God though should not become a chore. Don't let it become a chore!
Basically, procrastination is the opposite of working hard and a synonym (in my mind) of laziness, irresponsibility, and lack of priorities if that makes any sense.